love and ration

The story is not directly told by the author, instead, it is shared by a woman who wrote a letter to the man she loved for a lifetime when she was dying. It is all about how much the woman loved that man and all the things that she had ever did for him to show her crazy but eternal love. The woman was raised by her single mother in Vienna. When she was thirteen years old, a young man moved in the community. As the servants helped him to decorate the house, the woman felt a sense of mystery on him before she really met him and began to raise a lot of attention to him. Being a teenage, she actually did not know what love is, but it occurred to her that she just had a special feeling on that man and barely could look at his face because of a lack of courage. All she could do was to secretly watch him through a small hole on the door day by day though she had found him amorous. However, things had to be changed because she would be moving in her stepfather’s house after her mother’s remarriage. Her youth ended in the inexhaustible missing on him. she gave up the well-paid job but found a job as saleswoman in the city where the man lived for holding a hope that she would meet him again. Finally, he noticed the woman and got a crush on her but only for three days, leaving the white roses and her pregnancy. The woman gave birth to a baby boy without telling him. She thought that the baby is the fruit of their love and she did not want to aggravate his burden since she knew he was a playboy. For the rest of her life, she made a living as a prostitute to create a better condition for her son without asking the man for any help. Her life was strongly marked by a tough determination to live alone rather than rely on that man. Meanwhile, the woman still could not stop missing him as if he were the only man in the world and she turned down a lot of suitors who may love her and accompany her forever. During the time she met that man again in the concert, she still found him so irresistable. she love him until she died. 爱真的是这样吗？甘愿付出一切，付出一生?我们需要思考如何学会爱一个人，才能避免女主人公的悲剧。